Short answer: Yes, but if you would have asked me six months ago… I would’ve said no.
I am ‘CoffeeBreath Lee’.
I am ‘Content w/ Coffee Breath’.
I am Leanne Dekrey.
I am myself, but it took me a while to get there.
Yes, I am stalling.
I got destroyed. Its a bit dramatic yes, but completely unexaggerated. I got destroyed. I contributed to the destruction almost three-fourths of the way, but not all. My parents, my brother, my past friends, my distant ones… I blame the entirety of my social existence. I got destroyed emotionally because my social experience caused me to choose isolation over human contact… Which then led to my demise.
For a time in my life, I had the wrong relations, wrong friends, wrong religion, wrong relationships with my family. Wrong for me. Toxic. It was all toxic for me. So…
I gave myself a clean slate. During this time, I nearly lost it. HOWEVER, I never felt more capable. I, indeed, was capable of anything. I am capable of anything. I didn’t know it then though. I was in the darkest pit of depression I could ever know. I didn’t see a point… Blah blah blah… everyone says it so everyone gets it, but really. It was rough. I know I’ve mentioned this, but its important…
I got therapy. I sought help. As soon as the chocolate no longer brought a smile to my face, I knew. It was time to seek out a professional. I have come far from the girl I was at the start of the summer. I lost a lot, but…
I gained a future. My future.
If you ever need to talk or just feel like an email correspondence would be nice for your psyche, then my email is firstname.lastname@example.org.
DO NOT HESITATE TO SEEK OUT YOUR OWN HAPPINESS.
ITS YOURS AS IS YOUR FUTURE.
YOU CAN DO ANYTHING YOU THINK YOU CAN… ANYTHING.
Much love to you and yours.
~may your breath always be the way you wish~